The World of Skampyres

born_to_fail @ 2006-01-14T15:53:00

2006-01-14T07:51:03Z

tizzy, i honestly dont give a fuck what you and jared have. i dont care how much he loves you. i hate you both. i think its fucking hilarious that you thought i still gave a shit about him. lol.

as for the jumper, get the fuck over it. compared to what you and jared put me through, this is PISS FUCK ALL. its a fucking jumper. go find a fucking sunset, bitch.

born_to_fail @ 2005-12-15T14:47:00

2005-12-15T03:49:57Z

i cant believe it.. the concert was shit...

JUST KIDDING!!

IT WAS FUCKING AWESOMEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
BEST DAY OF MY WHOLE FUCKING LIFE.

that is all :)

born_to_fail @ 2005-12-08T17:19:00

2005-12-08T09:09:12Z

FUCK YOU ALL

born_to_fail @ 2005-12-05T16:32:00

2005-12-05T08:31:26Z

WEOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!

im roland's god. he told me so B-)
ner ner

im excited i think im going to the moobies with abe and johno tonight. need. money. meh ill find some :)

weeeeo im a god :P

HMMM

2005-12-05T04:52:31Z

hmm..

hey jared..

FUCK YOU

GET
THE
FUCK
OVER
IT

born_to_fail @ 2005-11-19T18:24:00

2005-11-19T18:37:55Z

arghhhh my show keeps squeaking..
man my feet cane so much... i think ive only sat down for like 2 hrs in the whole today... *exhausted sigh* working with dad was alright except i got sunburnt like the white biatch i am... *ouch*
eating coco-pops, updating.. just walked home with john ash and paul. i like walking. unless im alone :(
im pretty stoooned right now.. next time im getting drunk dammit... the whole night ive been paranoid about stoopid shit. grr.
stupid jared coming to the party *sigh* that was too awkward. i just wish we could all get along so we could get on with the rest of our lives lol.
are u avoiding me?
paranoia paranoia
soooooooooooooooooo fukn stonnnnnnnnnnnedd.....

i dont want anybody else..
when i think about you i touch myself
*moan*
bahahahahahahahahahahahaha
fuck yeah!! hahah
man im in the weirdest mood! i been talking about getting it on with girls a lot tongiht. its strange
ohhh reijas a lesbian

nah just kidding

or am i?

teehehehehehehe
brazilian lurve goes a long way babeh

born_to_fail @ 2005-11-17T22:30:00

2005-11-18T06:31:18Z

john isnt wearing any pants :o
he is naughty

he is a freaky deaky boy who likes dirty porn *ewww*

born_to_fail @ 2005-11-17T07:56:00

2005-11-17T15:58:57Z

OMGGGGGGG
THIS IS LIKE THE BEST FUCKING NIGHT EVER
i am so happy. this has been the awesomest party. i am so trashed..
whoa i havnt made one spelling miostake!! woooooo
dammit
yehhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
my bro fuckn rocks!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i lover karrrrrrrrrrrrrrl
nd i love melody but her mum is GAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY
MELODY I WILL SAVE U ONE DAY
anywayz. im going back outside. i am a rockstar in my backyard
john is hot. mexiacn style.

born_to_fail @ 2005-11-17T03:58:00

2005-11-17T12:05:00Z

OK EVERYONE.
im celebrating my brother coming home. i am in the best mood ever, and who better to share my happiness with, than all my mates!!
So theres a gathering at mine tonight! im gonna try call you all, but if i dont get to you, hopefully u read this. Come whenever. Bring lots of booze. Dont bring randoms.
ok these people are invited:

Sophie
Lorrie
Mel
Sarah
Christina
Bianca
Brigitte
Kim C
Kim Y
Katie
Kel
Ben
Paul M
Fimbo
Devin
Nicole R
Nicole L
Amanda
Briony
Paul B
John
Roland
Ash
DJ
James (as in yr 11 james)
Melody
Laura F

I think thats it.

born_to_fail @ 2005-11-17T02:29:00

2005-11-17T10:29:41Z

OMFG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

MY BROTHER IS HOME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
THAT WAS THE SUPRISE!!!!!!!!!!!!!
THIS IS THE BEST DAY EVER

yoink

2005-11-17T08:12:48Z

i stole this from one of nicole's friends' lj

Reply to this entry with a comment containing a photo of you, then tell me 5 things about you that I don't know. Then post this very sentence in your own journal and so it's only fair I'll post a picture of me, if you want to know 5 things about me you don't know paste this in your journal.

born_to_fail @ 2005-11-16T21:36:00

2005-11-17T05:49:48Z

Hahahahahahhaha
im 'bitter and twisted'

hmm good luck to everyone in their drama exam today.
hoping to get drunnnnnnnnnnnnnnk tonight and burn all my school shit woooo.
kel came over last night. we went to soccer, and we went to bens and i rolled the biggest mother of a joynt. it was awesome. unfortunately melody wasnt allowed to come :(
but i get to see melody tonight hopefully. wooooo, thats if this drunkenness happens.
my suprise got delayed cos daddy is busy. i cant wait.
in the past few days i have discovered the greatness that is solitude. mmmm sittin in my room with tim-tams coke and movies.. woooo, hahaha
ugh ready steady cook is such a shit show.
i love walking around with no pants on. i cant explain it, its just awesome. i love having the house to myself, i can just walk around naked if i want to :D
my butt looks good in these undies. hahahahahaha

i love nicole
and melody
and briony
and kelly
and sophie
and sarah
and kim
and amanda
and lorrie
and benjaminnnn

naw i didnt wana leave anyone out..

these scars, they heal

2005-11-15T16:58:09Z

i felt so good today.

Sarah picked me up, and drove me to the city to see my psychologist. After much mucking about with road directions, getting lost and driving the wrong way up a one way road (LOL!) we found a car park, and ate sushi :)
After my appointment, I went back to Sarah's house and we sat on the net for a bit, and then went down to the beach with Lorrie, Kim and Soph. We were planning to go to Watermans.. but Sarah missed the turnoff, and some wankers behind us were following us.. so we decided to keep going to Scarborough. The guys were like miming "call me" and shit behind us, and kept beeping at us.. so i flipped 'em the bird, and then the mooned us!! BAHAHAHAHAHA it was so funny.. but after a while they got annoying, and we eventually lost them. Went to beach, laid on the sand with Soph.. and then some two random guys came laid down next to us. I was like "wtf...." They turned out to be two tourists from Switzerland. And they did they whole "Vee come from Svitzerland.. Zee land of Chocolate and Cheese!!" hahahahahahaha.
They were pretty interesting mind you, although one of them got extremely close to me.. he was like an inch away from my face going "ahh you have blue hair! Are you a Punka?" lol. But luckily he was the better looking one - the other guy was creepy haha.
Then the other girls came back from the water and said we were going, so we tried to leave, and they jumped on my towel and wouldnt let us go!! We stood there for like 5 mins trying to get my towel back, and then some buff dude came up and threatened them LOL he was like "Oi man give them their towel back alright!" :s thankyou muchly mr buff man with nipple rings :)

Hmm then we went to Macdonalds and i got a Mc Flurry, we went to Nicoles (im not sure why..) but then Sarah dropped me home, i asked my mum if she wanted to go to the movies, and she cancelled her band rehearsal to go with me. Luv Luv Luv for mummy :)
I took her to see 40 Year Old Virgin cos ive been talking about it so much, and she loved it! yay :)
It was quite the fun day!

Tomorrow i get my big 'suprise'. Im trying not to think about it cos im scared ill guess what it is. I always seem to do that. I hate it. It always ruins the suprise. And thats why I'm gonna try to sleep in tomorrow as long as possible... so i dont have much of a day to keep occupied. Im excited though.. i mean, Dad told mum to take Thursday morning off work cos he reckons she'll want to play with it all morning! *shrugs* *closes eyes* *i dont know what it is, i dont know what it is. im not thinking. im not guessing*

Still waiting for some occasion to wear my new dress. Looks like it'll be Graduation. Pfft Tizzy is gonna be there. And Jared. PFFFFFT i dont care, cos im graduating. WOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
And then im going to leavers and im gonna get smashed with all my lovely friends, WITHOUT JARED or anyone who hates me! YAY.. ooooh theres gonna be so many games of ring of fire *thumbs up* cant wait to reel in the rookies :P im chasing you mel......hehehe

OWWWWWWWWWWWWWW I JUST SMACKED MY FUCKN KNEEEEEEEEEEE!!!

Anyway, I was talkin to my marme tonight about next year and she suggested i do a cert 3 for music at tafe. She said its really easy and my bro did it. Mum asked if Jared was doing that same course :s im not sure if he is or not... but i dont know and really dont care.
im not going to let dickheads control the things i want to do in life! I plan to meet lots of musicians, and form a band next year. I REEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAALLY want to start playing music again. Im craving it.

This has been the longest entry ever.. its funny how you can talk heaps when you're happy.

29 is the crucial number, and im over waiting that long

born_to_fail @ 2005-11-14T16:19:00

2005-11-14T08:19:46Z

nicole is a fucking sexy bitch!

all she has to do is ask, and i'd turn lesbian for her anyday!

born_to_fail @ 2005-11-14T15:43:00

2005-11-14T07:44:11Z

well my friend
the tables have turned

and im still here

she plays games

2005-11-14T05:44:55Z

ive had a pretty good w/e.
went to ben ibbs' on friday, which was great.
saturday was ok, went to kim kays.. left.. came home with paul m, kel, soph and lorrie and watched texas chainsaw massacre WOO.
cathy came over with yasmin and kahn yesterday. played with the babiiiiiiies. yayyy babies :) kahn is beautiful.. i was holding him and singing awwwwwwwwww.. and yazzy is soo cute.. she knows a few words and just yells them all the time... "bum! bum! shoes!" LOL. she gave me a kiss when they left :) nawwww.
oh and cathy brought me a bouquet of flowers.. :) how sweet.. i love cathy :)
my mum bought me some cruisers too, and yazzy was trying to be like me, with her bottle of apple juice, naww! hehehehe
then lastnight i was on the net, and briony was a bit upset and bored so i went over there to keep her company. instead of brionhy studyiong for the exam she had today, we just went to dante's foods and briony got some smokes from the bp... ben drove us.. we went back to bens and smoked some weed.. myspaced it up, livejournaled it up.. talked about people who suck... then i came home and watched from dusk till dawn. woo i love that movie.
bens picking me up soon to go over his house.
havent had a shower yet, only got up at like 12..
cant wait to see corpse bride.
oh my daddy has a suprise for me on wednesday. YAY! i dont know what it is yet... oooooo.. im excited now.
framed my surrealist project for keefy to enter it into perspectives. i hope it gets in. it looks wicked.
best go have a shower now.
oh no, katies party is same night as melodys :( what shall i do!! ahh dilemmas, dilemmas...
well im off

i told you this would happen

born_to_fail @ 2005-11-11T04:19:00

2005-11-11T12:35:19Z

i have been advised to participate in boring activities.. soooo QUIZ FOR ME -_-

10 bands you’ve been listening to a lot lately:

1) My Chemical Romance
2) Mazzy Star
3) The Cure
4) Ben Lee
5) Doves
6) NIN
7) nothing else really.....
8) -
9) -
10) -

09 things you look forward to:

1) Seeing my brother
2) Graduation
3) Leavers.. kind of.
4) Sydney
5) oh god, i dont even have anything else.
6) -
7) -
8) -
9) -

8 things you like to wear:

1) nothing
2) my emo jeans
3) my big buckley boots
4) my corpse bride nighty
5) new underwear
6) sunnies
7) my new singlet
8) my cons.

07 things that annoy you:

1) people
2) more people.
3) being depressed
4) waking up in the middle of the night
5) needing to pee in the morning.
6) when no ones online
7) being hot (yes i meant temperature wise)

06 things you say most days:

1) *sigh*
2) okay
3) i cant do it
4) dont know
5) .....i dont really say much anymore
6) -

05 things you do everyday:

1) cry
2) Have shower
3) Get Dressed
4) think about jared
5) think about tizzy

04 people you spend alot time with:

1) sophie
2) my mum
3) my computer
4) ben, lately.

03 movies you could watch over and over again:

1) Ameican History X
2) pirates of the caribbean
3) terminator 2

02 of your favorite songs at the moment:

1) Helena - My Chemical Romance
2) fade into you - mazzy star

01 person you could spend the rest of your life with:

1) jared.

they dont love you like i love you

2005-11-10T10:40:54Z

well, at the moment it looks like im not going on leavers. sorry guys.
i just got an increase in medication, and its not smart to be drinking whilst on it...
my psychologist and mum are very reluctant to let me go down there on my own for the whole week.
i dont even know if i can. im too scared.
i know you guys will say i have my friends down there.. but i really need someone to look after me at the moment, however pathetic that may sound.
the best scenario at the moment is me and my mum staying with a friend in margs, and coming to the park to visit.
this sucks.
you fucked up everything.

dont know if i can go to sydney anymore either. im too unstable atm to be able to leave home for 4 days without my parents. we will have to wait and see. i hope i can get better in time. bcos i would hate to miss it.

missed my TEE exams. not doing them. organisations have been made to get my TER from my school marks, which i am happy with.

i am so tired. i cant do anything anymore. i cant do this anymore. ive shut off.

like salt in an open wound

born_to_fail @ 2005-11-05T22:44:00

2005-11-05T14:38:48Z

BAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ash just told us all his story about how he went to work and was masturbating in the tioilets over "milf" ... som old lady tha he idolises.. hahahahahahahahahaha... he sed the story like 6 times!!

he drank half a bottle of scotch :s ring of fire is so good to catch out the rookies with hhahahaha
im not very drunk. its quite sad - every ones getting drunk and all i want to do is study!!
well ill be back later i guess..
i really need to peeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
cya

p.s. i love u emo sam you are just so cooooool best friends forever haha!!!

born_to_fail @ 2005-11-04T00:49:00

2005-11-03T16:57:39Z

well.... i was right. it was sam. i wont say how i know, but i know.
LOL
how much time did you waste doing all that then sam?
i must say thankyou, though... as it did provide me with a great amount of laughter.. just as it did for all my friends :) and you made me feel special, as you proved to me how willing all those people were to stick up for me :) thankyou everybody.
do you know what else is hilarious? sheena actually ADDED joyful_murder as a friend. LOL that girl is looking for ppl to hate me with.
im still not quite sure as to WHY sad sam hates me so much... oh well, atleast we all know she's spending her time productively :)

i also recieved an apology from roland for what he said to me.. or to put it more correctly: what sam exaggerated on what he said to me. me and roland are now on good terms. it feels good to resolve an issue with yet another person.

another day well had.
now to start a sewing project at 1:03 am..... maybe....if i can be bothered :P

born_to_fail @ 2005-11-03T16:18:00

2005-11-03T08:13:36Z

LMAO
i just found this photo on roxy's journal.
amina is a fucking legend. i love her.

whoever sees amina at school tell her i love her and miss her!!!!!!!
tell her to get an lj already!

born_to_fail @ 2005-10-28T04:35:00

2005-10-28T11:36:33Z

just so everyone knows, jared is not having a halloween party on monday night. he never really agreed to it, so dont show up at his house expecting a party.

that is all

born_to_fail @ 2005-10-23T20:20:00

2005-10-23T12:12:02Z

"hello jarrad
thankyou so much for telling me that you actually KNEW about jared cheating on me the whole fucking time. and thanks also for telling me he cheated on me. how considerate of you. you're just like the rest.
i never shouldve stuck up for you.

now i know the real reason why u were so afraid of my expected 'drama'...bcoz u knew i would find out sooner or later didnt you?

you know what? maybe you wouldnt have to deal with everyone's 'dramas' if you werent such a fucking ASSHOLE"

born_to_fail @ 2005-10-11T23:46:00

2005-10-11T15:38:56Z

Singing songs that make you slit your wrists

2005-10-07T10:01:00Z